Reality

I've mentioned before how difficult it is for me to view other people properly. I think we all have this feeling that we need to put on a fake happy face and pretend that everything's alright when it's not.  So when I share my ramblings I don't do it for attention or for pity.  I do it because it's reality.  When I read the scriptures they're full of rough stories.  I definitely think it's important to remember the tough stuff just so that we can be grateful for times when we're not in those situations. 

This past week has been RIDICULOUS.  Between the two kids we've suffered immunization shots (and the fevers that accompanied them), a virus, croup, and an ear infection.  Skyler became so sick his fever got up to 104.2 and he didn't eat or drink for a couple of days.  Last night his pediatrician instructed me to take him to the ER.  We had a friend come over and help Ben give Skyler a blessing and I immediately left.  To my surprise, Skyler slept for probably 5 of the 6 hours we were there.  That made the whole IV business much easier.  I was prepared for a full night of screaming Skyler but he was such a good sport.  I was so proud of him.  After a few days of being too weak to even turn his head to watch a movie, we were delighted when Ben went into his room this morning and found him rocking like crazy on his glider, giggling.  We're so relieved he's fine. 

I hesitate talking about this, just because it seems as if there's some unspoken rule that says that you're not supposed to.  But I don't always go with the norm and I want to record this.  In the midst of all this craziness, I had a miscarriage.  To be honest, I always assumed that if I were to ever have a miscarriage it wouldn't phase me much.  Everyone seems to react differently to them and I can understand how a lot of women become emotional about it.  But this was so early on in the pregnancy and I don't really bond with my kids until they're born.  So when I found out what my body was actually doing, it was a little bit of a bummer, but I wasn't upset. 

When it rains it pours, right? 

So life goes on with its ups and downs.  I told my mom that this was all so laughable that I wanted to cry.  But it makes me think back to Adam and Eve and how they chose to go through all the pains in life because it would be worth it to know the good.  And we DO have a lot of good to be thankful for.