A Little Scare

Warning:  this post is about girly things.

On New Year's Eve we were in the car just a few minutes from home when I started having labor like pains out of the blue.  I gripped onto the passenger door handle and my arm rest and squeezed until the pain passed a couple of minutes later.  The rest of the day I was cramping enough that I spent most of the day in bed where the kids wouldn't be jumping all over me.  I didn't know what was happening at the time.  I thought it was a fluke incident.

The next day I started bleeding.  And the cramping got worse.  I stayed in bed on New Year's Day too (except, of course, I went outside to take pictures of Skyler riding his bike).  And the the next day.  And that's when the hemorrhaging began.  I started passing golf ball sized clots.

The next day was Sunday and it was really important that I was there because it was Ella's first day being a Sunbeam, Skyler was sharing his favorite scripture story during primary, Lily's first day in senior primary (what?!), and Thad's first day in nursery by himself -- not to mention I had still had to teach my CTR 5 class.  So even though I felt absolutely miserable, we made our way to church.  We got there a half hour early so that we could figure out where all of the kids' different classrooms were and how we would pick them all up after church.  

That morning the blood clots I was passing were much bigger than the previous day.  They were the size of tennis balls.  I was passing one about every 30 minutes but once I was at church I was making trips to the bathroom every 10 minutes because I could feel another one coming.  I talked to my friend who is a labor and delivery nurse and I also called my doctor and both of them told me that I needed to leave church right away and go to the ER.  Before we left (right as Sacrament meeting was starting) I was able to get a priesthood blessing.  A few different families took care of our kids during church and brought them home while Ben and I were at the hospital.

Fortunately I didn't yet need a blood transfusion or any other procedure.  Apparently I was the only person in my family who hadn't even had the thought of a hysterectomy.  So it was a relief that all I needed was to get on an IV to re-hydrate me after my major blood loss.

I was discharged and told to take it easy.  After looking back on the days before, I noticed that my bleeding and hemorrhaging was much worse when I was standing, moving, and sometimes sitting.  But every time I was lying down it would stop.  I stayed on bed rest through Wednesday.  The kids went to my parents' on Monday and Wednesday and Ben watched them at home while he worked on Tuesday.  I am not wholly better yet, but I am getting there and am functioning again.

One of the major questions I keep getting is what caused this?  This isn't something people usually announce, but I had previously had my Mirena IUD removed.  My hemorrhaging was a delayed hormonal reaction to not having a constant dose of estrogen.  To be fair, I am the only person I know of who has cursed the Mirena and has had a terrible experience with it.  Everyone else I know who has had it has loved theirs.

We were blessed through the whole experience.  We have had so many people help our family and offers to help our family.  I guess that's what happens when you leave Sacrament Meeting in tears and have mascara smeared across your face to prove something's wrong.  But really, if you are reading this and you were one of those who reached out to us, thank you.  We are so grateful.

Vacation and the New Year

Ella and Lily both received flying fairies from Santa.  Naturally they're both scared to death of them and so Skyler plays with them.  Naturally.

Sometimes, after Christmas, you need a break from all the shiny new toys, and you need to get back to playing with the good old sticks, er, branches.

In case anyone was wondering, Ben doesn't act like he's 32 on/after Christmas.  I like that about him.  I'm not sure how many hours he's poured into playing with hot wheels and legos in the past week.

The night before New Year's Eve, Ben and I confessed to each other that we felt slightly guilty over the fact that our kids have no idea what New Year's Eve means.  So we told them we would have fun that day.  We went to Costco for lunch and, curse you Costco samples, we ended up bringing home a chocolate mousse cake.  We've been Costco members for years and this was the first time we've given in to something we didn't need because it was too good to pass up.

My New Year's Resolution is to never eat a Costco sample again.

(I'll let you know when I have failed at my attempts next month)

Me:  "Say cheese!"

Lily:  *posing her wacky face*

Skyler:  *smearing chocolate frosting all over his face*

And people wonder why we never have our family picture taken...

We knew we weren't going to let the kids stay up until midnight for several reasons.  The kids' bedtime is 7, so they wouldn't make it even if they tried, we've all been sick with a few different things, and the biggest reason of all?  Ben and I really just wanted a quiet night.  There.  I've said it.

But we told them what people do on New Year's and how it's crazy and everyone parties.  So we found a countdown on Netflix and let the kids celebrate.  I sure hope your celebration wasn't as out of control as these guys!!!

Judging from Skyler's, "That's it????" after the countdown, Ben and I decided that maybe we won't try again for a couple more years...

We put the kids in bed and Ben and I made our own special dinner to enjoy by ourselves (which is something we do a couple of times a month in lieu of date nights out).  A few weeks ago, one of Ben's co-workers casually asked for our address.  A couple days later a package arrived on our porch from her that was filled with a couple hundred dollars worth of Omaha Steaks as a thank you for all Ben's work this year.  We were thrilled!  So we grilled up some steaks and watched Netflix/read, and went to bed at 10:30.  We fully realize how UN-exciting we are, and we are more than okay with it.  :)

This past week has been so unseasonably warm and RAINY.  The creek behind our house has been overflowing at times.  Ben and I had a goal to get Skyler riding his bike sans training wheels during the break.  Why we always tried to help our kids during the scorching heat on Summer days is beyond me.  This morning (the first time we weren't being poured on this week) I told Skyler, "I think today is the day."  He wasn't eager to try, but as soon as he got on his bike with Ben, it was like magic.  I think it took maybe 30 seconds for him to ride by himself?  It's gonna be a good year, y'all.

I was on make-sure-Ella-and-Thad-don't-roll-into-the-street-as-discreetly-as-a-toddler-can-roll-into-the-street-on-a-plasma-car-duty.

Between Ella and Thad's different, yet both hilarious personalities, I count my blessing that I get to call these two crazies my own.

What is he doing?

Why is he rolling into the grass?

Doesn't he realize how un-fun that is?

He can hardly roll.

Crazy kid.

Guess he's gotta learn that at some point.

Wait.

THAD GET OUT OF THE STREET!!!!

Clever kiddo figured out how to escape my ever looming presence at the top of the driveway.  Such a Thad thing to do -- to have this mastermind idea executed with a completely straight face.  Gah.  I love him anyway.

His masculinity isn't threatened when he rides Ella's pink butterfly unicorn balance bike.

Lily has been eagerly awaiting this day.  I think she was just as excited that Skyler can now ride his bike as he was.  Now they can ride around the neighborhood together.

Way to go, Skyler!  What a great way to ring in the New Year!

Christmas

My parents wanted to be here when the kids came down and saw what Santa brought them.  We decided that we would come down at 7 and that's when my parents arrived.  But naturally, since most of us were sick, Thad was up coughing at 4 AM and didn't get back to sleep.  By 5:30 AM all the kids were in bed with us watching Charlie Brown's Christmas.  We called Ben's parents in Hong Kong since it was an ideal time to call them.  And then we heard our garage door open and the kids went flying out of our bedroom because they knew they were finally allowed to go downstairs.

When your kids are eager for the presents they've been waiting months for, you're only going to get blurry shots because they wouldn't stop moving.

Skyler got the marble run he asked Santa for.  "I really got a marble run that has booby traps?!"

We also found out that it took Santa 2 hours to put together.  What a nice and patient old man.

Lily got the jewelry box she wanted.  It was full of stick on jewels to decorate it with.  I have to admit that I was worried, because she wanted it to be filled to the brim with jewelry but she didn't even care that it was empty once she saw that she got the jewelry box she wanted.  Good job Santa.

Thaddeo got Magformers and they have been one of the most coveted gifts this year.  Everyone plays with them, especially a 32 year-old man I happen to know.

Ella got the ballerina doll she wanted.  They have been inseperable the past few days and I don't know how many times she's changed her outfit (thanks, Mom and Dad, for the outfits).  I asked Ben if as a teenager he would have ever envisioned his older self changing doll clothing like it's nothing.

Also, that motherly look on her face makes me melt.  Ella and Lily are both such mini mommies.

The kids were so excited to get "life saviors!"

Oh, I mean light sabers.

My parents also got Lily a similar jewelry box that she had to put jewels on.  Both boxes were completed on Christmas day.  Am I surprised?  Negative.

Papa ran the babies around the house and let them "fly."

Skyler's biggest hope this year was for a Hot Wheels track.  He ended up with two.  I should have only bought him one.  Why do they not clearly label the package as saying that they are massively huge and will take up all the space in your entire downstairs???

Ben and I decided to do a simpler Christmas this year.  Each of the kids got quite a bit less than in Christmases past, but fortunately none of them noticed or cared.  I did all my shopping online on Black Friday and didn't buy anything else afterward.  Lily and Skyler were also given library cards as one of their gifts because they've been begging for them for months.  As silly as it sounds, it's actually a huge deal and I was happy that it was free.  :)

We spent the day playing with toys, taking naps, and coloring in our adult coloring books.  It's funny because I bought some for $2 each in Hong Kong for the kids for Christmas, and unknowingly, my mom bought one for me too!  There have been a few times when we have all sat down and colored in our coloring books together.  Lily has suggested that we form a club.

Dinner was delish and this was the first time my family has ever made a turkey on Christmas.  Traditionally we have always done ham, but in the most recent years, we've done steak to appease my former pregnant appetites.

As a kid I remember being so excited about Christmas during the Christmas season.  As soon as Christmas music played on the radio, it was on 24/7 and it never got old.  As time has gone by, I have felt that excitement disappear a little each year.  This year, I decided to try an experiment.  I created a Mormon Tabernacle Choir Pandora station and almost solely listened to religious Christmas music this year (this also includes Pentatonix and The Piano Guys, because, come on).  My Christmas spirit did a 180 and I appreciated Christmas so much more this year than any other year.

We hope that all of you had a wonderful Christmas, too.  We are so thankful for our Savior who was born for us -- who lived for us and died for us.  I am so thankful that we have the Christmas season each year to refocus on that wonderful moment in history.

Randomness

I was going through phone pictures and realizing how many I haven't put on the blog.  So here are some really poor quality pictures for your enjoyment?

Ben and I decided months ago that we would give each other Star Wars tickets as our Christmas presents.  Ben's never seen an IMAX movie before and I've only seen one.  We figured if there's any movie you should see at IMAX, it's Star Wars.  It was soo soooo good!  Ben's taking the kids to see it after Christmas which is saying something since we never take our kids to new releases in the theater.

These two cuties sometime this past winter.  I love them.

Ella loves going to Lily's ballet classes with me each week.  Normally she ends up playing on my phone's calculator since I'm not cool enough to have games on my phone.  This one day she just wanted to take selfie after selfie.  She insisted that I wear her Princess Sofia amulet.

A picture of her gorgeous hair before it was cut.

This was my favorite half hour from the 10 hour drive home from Pennsylvania.  Considering we had no way to watch movies this trip, there was a lot of book reading, coloring, and accidental toy dropping.  Thad talked and talked nonstop and we kept thinking that eventually he would pass out, but it just didn't happen.  Until, of course, we were an hour from home.  Then it was quiet enough that everyone could nap.

Skyler got to be an angel in Primary on Sunday.  

There were a few times this summer when I took all the kids to dollar movies.  Each one was progressively worse for Thad.  Poor kiddo.  This was the last movie we saw before I gave up on taking them anymore because I ended up walking out in the hallway with Thad for an hour.  Thank goodness my mom was there to sit with the rest of the kids.

One day I was in the kitchen looking out the window when I saw this hawk that was the size of a large owl.  I love living in this house.  We have seen so much wildlife that I haven't seen anywhere else I've lived.  So far we've seen tons of deer, rabbits, foxes, a couple of herons, toads, vultures, turtles, and my own 4 wild kiddos.

Ballet

Ben usually only goes on his business trips to NYC once a quarter, but during Thanksgiving break he found out that he was going to have to fly in to attend a Goldman Sachs Christmas party and to give literally a 3 minute presentation.  So while Ben was partying it up at the Rockettes' Christmas show, I was sitting at home debating with myself.  Do I take all 4 of the kids to Lily's dance performance or do we just skip it all together?  It was a very casual performance in one of the dance studios, so it wouldn't have been a big deal to miss it.  Plus, Lily had missed a few practices with our Hong Kong trip and other reasons, so she wasn't up to speed on the entire dance.

Ultimately, I figured, meh, it's an hour.  I can survive an hour of anything.  Even with two toddlers in tow.  Even when one of those toddlers is Thaddeo.

Fast forward to when we arrived at ballet and realized that I had forgotten to put Lily's hair up in a bun.  That may sound trivial, but Holly Springs School of Dance has a pretty strict dress policy and not having your hair up in a bun is unacceptable.  Lily's hair is shoulder length and when I put it up in a bun once and hair started popping out of the bun, she sent word from her teacher that I was supposed to pin it next time.  Without any hair ties to be found, I looked back at Ella with her hair in these adorable pig tails, pulled out her hair ties, and put up Lily's hair in this terrible un-brushed bun.

*sigh*

For once, they kept the door open during practice.  Ella and Thaddeo were thrilled not to have to take turns being held up to see through the one way mirror window.

Have I ever mentioned that I think Lily is just absolutely beautiful?  Because I look at her everyday in awe.  Honestly.

Lily is so determined to go far in ballet.  She desperately wants to do pointe, but I've told her that that will be several years down the road.  I hope she sticks with it because I never grow tired of watching her dance.  She may not always be on beat or twirling in the right direction, but when she dances on her own, she is so beautiful.

One of my favorite things is that Lily has started giving Ella dance lessons at home because each night in Ella's personal prayers she says, "...and please bless that Lily will teach me ballet."  They hold onto the sofa, go through different positions, practice different moves, and then they dance together.  In other words, it's beyond precious and I really should record it one of these days.

Santa

As is tradition, Santa came to our neighborhood club house for a visit.  Fortunately, this year Ella was excited to see him and Thad was only weirded out.  I was so proud of him for not crying!

A ballerina doll.

Something unintelligible.

Marble Run.

Rainbow colored jewelry box with diamonds, and sparkles, and jewels, with a ballerina that spins and plays music, filled all the way to the top with jewelry -- "Because Santa's elves can do anything."

*sigh*

Fortunately, Santa is amazing and told each of the kids that he can't actually make everything and anything happen, but that he does his best.  Thanks, Santa.  *wink*

The biggest success of the night?  Ella and Thad's hands in this picture.

Oh, don't mind me.  That's just me bawling my eyes out in the background over relief of their newly found friendship.

Relief Society Christmas Party

I have two callings.  I am a Primary teacher and I also serve on the RS Meetings committee.  Long story short, the party ended up being at my house and it was awesome!  I mean, my house is 2600 square feet so it is neither tiny nor humongous, and with 25 women attending, it sure did feel packed.  We somehow ended up with the exact number of seats we needed.  It was a Christmas miracle.  ;)

We had a couple of short talks about how to keep Christ in Christmas, a musical number, a "favorites thing gift exchange," and we each shared a tradition that our families have to keep Christ in Christmas.  It was such a great night.  There were lots of laughs and a lot of spirit.

I love these ladies so much!  I never want to leave the Harris Lake Ward!  (Not to mention half the ward lives in my neighborhood...)